They hand over the baby, right on your chest, all slimy and gooey-looking, but it doesn’t matter. You still kiss him anyway.. He searches for your breast and with that first latch you get a rush of mixed emotions. Strange. Painful.. But no, more of an overwhelming sense of fulfillment and a bit of fear … Because it’s just you, your husband and this tiny creature now. This fragile life is now in your hands.
The doctors now hold your baby and clean him up… You just stop.. stare and maybe glance at your husband thinking.. “We did it!” You close your eyes thinking that this would be the best time to get a little sleep.. But before you know it, your baby is back in your arms. Now, sleep is nearly impossible.
Three hours just passed and it’s time to leave the delivery room. You’re all cleaned up, the baby is too.. They wheel you into your hospital suite – before you know it, the room is silent and immediately, a loud cry! It’s time to feed the baby again… You slightly panic, you’ve still got your IV on – it’s irritating actually.
Then *latch* ouch! He’s probably not latching on right.. Feels sore, like a wound being fiddled with. You try again, slightly better.. But no you just suck in the pain because this little one needs you to.
Eventually after many many hours, maybe days..the pain is finally gone- breastfeeding becomes like a normal thing- a routine. Every 3 hours.. Stretched to sometimes 4. Feed. Burp. Poop. Sleep. Feed. Burp. Poop. Sleep.
No one will ever really understand how much a mother endures ’till they actually become a mother themselves.
It’s amazing how our bodies manage to go through this seemingly stressful time. I mean after all, we just CREATED a human being inside of us! And now this little person is here right next to you…relying on you to keep him alive.
If you’re a mother for the first time, I know that sometimes you just stop and cry. And that’s okay. Let it out. You are tired and you just need a little break to keep you sane.
If you feel helpless, it’s normal. We all start somewhere. But don’t think you are alone- you have your husband, family and friends around- that’s what they are there for. Call them!
There are so many other moms most likely going through the same thing- nowadays, the online community is just a few clicks away! So many moms whom I’ve never even met have sent me emails, Instagram messages & Tweets about personal things they’ve been going through- and that just goes to show that we all need eachother. Each one has a story to tell – and we learn from it.
This is what Social Media & Blogging is about for me, reaching out and making it so much more meaningful than just plain old fashion, beauty & OOTD’s. Yes they are important too ’cause we need to look our best & take care of ourselves! But it’s not just about that. It’s about making a difference in each others lives and maintaining a balance in everything.
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